“So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain’t gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine.”
“Just Fine” by Mary J. Blige
The other day as I was in the car with my husband, this song came on the radio and I immediately began singing the lyrics. It’s from Mary J. Blige’s 2007 album, Growing Pains. The album title is a good description of what I’ve experienced this past year, and the song lyrics depict where I am today.
I recently heard a pastor say that sometimes there is hurt in the healing. The same can be said of growing pains. What growing pains? The choice to remove my mask and to embrace my vulnerability. The decision to slow down, to get quiet, and to reflect on my past (no matter how painful) so that I could learn from my mistakes and heal from them. It was stepping out of my comfort zone. It was learning to forgive and to accept myself.
As a result, I’m living life and loving myself and others more authentically. You know what else? I’m fine. Everything is not perfect, but I’m fine…just fine.
This year, may the grace of the Lord pour out on us abundantly along with faith and love that are in Christ Jesus (1 Timothy 1:14).